Saturday, February 14, 2015

Take a seat..we need to talk

It has been too long since my last post.  A ton has happened since...oh about 2 years ago now... and I am a mother of two amazing 18 month old twin boys.  They truly are the light of my life.  Before, I would always come to you about healthy eating and how to make oh so yummy dishes. This time it's going to go a little different.  Don't get me wrong that was fun, but now I think its time for a change.  It has nothing to do with you ....and all to do with me...really.

That being said......we need to talk.  These past 7 weeks my heart has been aching, and when I say aching I mean I can literally feel the pain jumping through my chest.  It is for something so much bigger than myself.  A little boy not but 4 months older than my own babies is having the fight of his life.  I know, I know, PLEASE not a ANOTHER sad story posted on the blogosphere or somebody's Facebook page.  After a while it gets exhausting and frankly too hard to read every single story or hard time someone is going through.  So, why is my story different then, because I actually care about this one.  Yes, yes you can call me a horrible person and say "you mean you don't care about the countless other stories and tragic events you read or hear?"  And the answer is No.  If I'm being honest it is very hard for me to sympathize with every single unjust thing that happens because there are so many of them.  I have learned to shut myself off from them and not let them take root.  Now, you may look at me and think that's a bad thing, to close yourself off from the world like that, and I agree it is, but you see I have this what I like to call "super power", I tend to listen to heart-wrenching stories and quite literally take on the burden of the person that is going through it.  AND. IT. IS. EXHAUSTING. I have learned over the years that God has blessed me with such a deep care for peoples stories so I can pray for them and give the burden to God, but if I'm not careful I take the burden on myself and well, that makes me a quite sad and moody individual. 

So let me tell you about Maksim.  I don't even know him, but I feel like he's one of my own.  Maybe that's because my "super power" is kicking in or maybe its because his eyes remind me of my own baby, Dax.  Whatever it is I feel very connected to this little guy and his story. Even now, as I am typing this my heart is aching and also smiling for how far he is coming in his process.  Maksim was rushed to the hospital New Years Eve.  The Dr.'s came to the conclusion that Maksim had contracted E-Coli and it was impairing his life severely.  Maksim's kidneys were failing and they had to put him on dialysis.  They also had to remove a lot of his intestine and colon as it was found to be dead.

When I read the news on this little baby boys journey I immediately wept and begged God to save him. Save him from all the pain he is feeling and doesn't know why.  Save him because he is so helpless and innocent.  Save him because you are GOD and he is your child.  I felt so tied to Maksim's life and everyday, I have been reminded when I feel that ache in my heart that Maksim holds to lift my hands and pray.  I don't know what is happening at that moment with him in the hospital, if its a good day or a bad day.  If he's weak and barely functioning enough to open his eyes or if he's able to life his head.   That's the thing about prayer.. you have to get outside yourself and ask God to do something you know you have absolutely no control over....I believe its called Faith.

Can I just say this, I have been through a whirlwind myself with relocating nearly a 1,000 miles across the country in the past 7 months with two babies, a husband, a dog and a whole-lotta boxes, but nothing, nothing seemed to hit me like Maksim's story.  I will be honest and say when I needed to "feel" God the most these past few months...I didn't.  When I needed to see a little relief at the end of the day.... I couldn't.  Most of that was my fault as I had not taken the time to be with the lover of my soul.  But one lonely night I read Maksim's post and I realized how short life can be, I asked myself "what the heck would I do if that was me?" And the pain I felt for that little baby so helpless, not knowing why this was happening to him, was too much to bare and I.LOST.IT.  I lost it all, my doubt, my ego, my pain, my childhood baggage, my sense of low self worth, my pride, the way people misunderstood me, who I've always been told I am VS. WHO I REALLY AM.  I am redeemed and at that moment I was set free.  Free from all the things I was carrying around by myself for the past year and free to be who I was always meant to be.. a daughter, a wife, a mother, an entrepreneur, a self-motivated starter, a cook, a quirky, bubbly women with a child-like demeanor. 

Rachel Messerer, we don't even know each other and probably never will, but I want you to know from one mom to another, Maksim restored my faith and relationship with God.  Through this horrific and terrifying experience he is doing something that he isn't even aware yet that he is doing, drawing people closer to where they are suppose to be and glorifying God with his story......so tell him THANK YOU.  Thank you, for helping me to see what truly matters again.  Thank you, for being so strong.  Thank you, for letting God use him.  Thank you, for giving me a chance to not take another moment for granted.  And Rachel, when he's old enough to understand, read him this post and let him know he's changed mine and I'm sure countless others lives with how brave he is.  Tell him HIS STORY is the only thing keeping me in perspective some days.  Tell him Well done good and faithful, well done!

Please DONATE to the Messerer family by clicking on this link: http://www.gofundme.com/prayformaksim

I bid you farewell and good night, till we meet again...

Candace

Thursday, February 23, 2012

YOU

Let me start off by saying that it is amazing how great I feel after eating whole REAL foods.  It is really remarkable how your body responds to healthy eating.  I am actually excited about waking up and making healthy choices throughout the day.

I really believe it is imperative to our quality of life by choosing a natural whole lifestyle.  Now that that has been said, let me say this, the way we treat our bodies shows how we view ourselves.  Think about it, you see a nice fit, toned women at a restaurant or out and about, do you really think she got that way by eating a quarter pounder the meal before?  Do you think she would ever even think to order something like that or cook it at home for that matter?  Nope, she is the one ordering a salad, a nice cut of meat and a side of steamed veggies or opting out her white bread for whole grain. It's because she cares about herself, she cares what her body looks like, she cares about her health and most of all she respects herself enough to not waiver.

If you do this, you truly learn to respect yourself and love yourself and learn how to really be happy I promise you others around you will thank you for it.  Once you are happy with who you are and make the decisions that lead to your destiny your family will be better for it, you will be better wives to your husbands, better mothers to your children and better friends.  You can only be one person, why not make it the best you, why not wake up and feel healthy and happy and loved instead of lethargic, sluggish and unwanted?  Is that how you want to live your life?  If you make a decision to do this it's going to make you the person you were always meant to be and your family will be stronger for it, your children will learn from it and you'll be your own biggest fan.  I mean if you're going to be cheering for somebody it might as well be yourself, right?  

I hope we can all take the time for ourselves so that we can be better at all the things we were meant to live for.  Until we meet again, I bid you all a farewell and goodnight!

Warm regards,

Candace
  
 
This is what I like to take on the go when I'm in a rush!  They are not 100% clean and natural but they are pretty close.  I am trying to slowly get myself off of all preservatives : ) and it is a process let me tell you!
This is my Salad w. Goat Cheese, Cucumbers and Red Onion.  Sorry that it is half eaten, whoops ;D
Oh this is just a little ole place I like to call heaven!  I love stopping here on my lunch, it is about a block a way and so fun, I could spend hours in here!
After visiting the co-op I was a little hungry from all that looking so I had a little snacky ;D 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

LIFE

Do you ever feel like you've become the worst version of yourself?  All the self-loathing, all the little things you really can't stand about who you are have somehow sprung open and that is all that you can see?  I have felt like the worst version of myself pretty much my entire life.  I don't know where it all stems from exactly but I do know somewhere along the line I made a decision, and that decision set the course for my whole life.

I made a decision to look at myself in total and complete disappointment, disapproval and disgust.  I was my own worst critic, I made up in my mind that I wasn't worthy enough to really be all the things that I knew I was meant to be and I kept believing it.  Well I am here to tell you I have hit my breaking point.  It took me 25 years to figure out that my life actually might just be worth living, who would have thought?!

I know you, whoever you are, are out there and finding yourself in the same position that I was.  That position that makes you ache, that consumes your thoughts, affects your relationships and will eventually destroy everything good in your life because you will never know how to enjoy your life.  You have to get to a point where you decide you are worth loving, and then every single day you find a way to love yourself.  Every single day you look in the mirror and tell you that you are beautiful, that there is no one else that is like you, that there is not one other person that has your smile, there is not one other human being on this earth that could do all those quirky little things you do exactly how you do them..nope not one.

You have to make a decision that you are going to change and then you have to do it.  I know, I know not so easy peasy right?  It will take time, A LOT of time, it will take determination, and it will take the willpower of getting your mind right.  I think I just got to a point where I knew that God made me for so much more than all of this and if I couldn't even love myself then how was I ever going to love anyone else.  For some of you that have been reading my blog in the past you know that I started out doing this as a form of accountability for myself to lose weight and while I still want to get those last few pounds off I have vowed as this whole "Self-Love Movement" to NEVER go on a diet again.  

I know you always hear this, "it's not a diet I am making a lifestyle change", but I have decided I am just way too hard on myself to put my mind and body through another one, soo I have just vowed to eat clean, eat natural, eat healthy, eat the way God intended me to eat.  I have decided to turn my blog into a "Lifestyle Change" :D  No longer will you see me post "40 days of this" or "30 days of that" it will be a "LIFE of this" or a LIFE of that".  I have decided life is way to short to be spending it in torment, and that is really what I was doing to myself, I was in this vicious cycle of never feeling good enough, but really I only have to be good enough for God and I already never will be so the pressure is off! :D No, instead I will spend my time loving myself, loving others and letting joy weave it's way in.   I will still be letting you know about what I am eating and posting pictures and recipes at the end of every post so that you can learn with me and eat healthy whole foods!

Until next time, farewell and good night!

Warm regards,
Candace

Breakfast was yummy Oats with 1/2 banana, a teaspoon of natural peanut butter and a dash of cinnamon !


















Lunch I had Organic Spring Lettuce with Cucumber, Goat Cheese and Balsamic Vinaigrette :D I love me some Goat Cheese!  If you have not tried it, it is wonderful and you must!


Dinner I had a Messy Egg Sandwich with 2 pieces of Ezekial Toast 2 eggs, Turkey Bacon (which I will not be using really any more because even though this is low in calories is is full of preservatives) and a sprinkle of sharp cheddar!  Yum this was my favorite meal by far, it's just something about breakfast for dinner always hits the spot :D










And lastley, I met with a new friend for a late coffee date and had this Cinnamon Rooibos tea and a little organic fruit roll! 


Friday, January 13, 2012

Think about it

What if you could do what you were meant to. What if you didn't let other People affect you. What if your decisions were the only thing holding you back from everything you could be. Here's how it is, you only have one shot, one chance, one time to live this life... Do you really want to waste it?

What if your actions really do hurt other people. What if you are the only person that could save somebody's life and you were to selfish to notice. What if you really are suppose to change the world but you never changed your mind, you never even gave yourself a chance. Instead you stick with the mundane, the average version of yourself and you wonder why life doesn't feel all that satisfying. Or why you are looking for something new because it's suddenly become so routine, so comfortable. Maybe you like not really taking a stand for one specific thing but instead teater on either side of the fence. Maybe you are so double minded you don't even know whats right anymore.

But what if there was an answer, what if someone held the keys to freedom. What if those addictions that owned you couldn't even touch you anymore. What If we got real with ourselves and started actually acting like we serve the Most High King instead of the prince of darkness.
This is a stand to take a stand. This is a chance to make a change. This is the fork in the road where you choose who you really are, where you really go.

You may think you have time, or that how you come off doesn't really matter, but I'm gonna tell you one thing that holds true... Those are all lies. Every single thing we do echoes in eternity and it doesn't matter if you thought you had more time or if you thought it didn't matter what you said or what you did, in fact the only thing that will matter is that you only thought, you never changed, you never even tried to make it, you never realized that for one second you might just be wrong.

I hope this resonates in all of our hearts that this life is not truely ours, it was purchased with a heavy price that can never be repaid... The least we can do is try.

Until we meet again I bid you all a farewell and good night.

Warm regards,
Candace

Skillet steak

2-4 steak fillets
1 purple onion, sliced
1 yellow pepper, sliced
4-5 mushrooms, sliced
Cast iron skillet

Heat skillet in oven on broil till hot. In the mean time have the burner on the stovetop ready. Season steaks with salt, pepper and olive oil. Once skillet is hot pull out of oven and place on burner,throw steaks on skillet and cook on both sides for 30 seconds each. Add the onions, peppers and mushrooms and put skillet back in broiler, cook 2 minutes on each side, then pull out of oven and put on Plate with tinfoil tented over it and let rest for 5 minutes. If you like steak more well done cook longer on each side in broiler, enjoy :)

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Abyss

Do you ever wonder why some people seem to be always moving forward, always progressing and then others you could leave for ten years and come back and they would still be in the same exact spot.  Same job, or lack there of, same mind set, same goals still not accomplished...saying the same old thing and walking the same old walk they were when you left them.

I have a word for these people...disappointed.  These are the people that had a dream, that had a chance, maybe even moved towards it and almost made it happen.  But instead of falling down and picking themselves back up, they simply stayed down, so desperate, so hopeless, so Disappointed that they could not possibly fathom starting over and instead never started again.

I have been one of these people before, and I can tell you there is nothing greater than waking yourself up out of that slumber and deciding that you aren't going to stay down, but instead you are going to FIGHT!  I am sure that you know someone who is like this, or maybe that someone is you, all I know is there is nothing worse than waking up day after day knowing that this is not the life you wanted, knowing that as each moment ticks away on that clock and as each month turns into a year that your slowly loosing all your dreams.  If there is one thing that I have learned not only from myself but from others around me that have or are choosing this path, there is nothing rewarding in the mundane, there is nothing satisfying in broken-heartedness...nothing.  If I could go back a million times and change the word I said, the action I made, the thought I had, and chosen the other way I would have.  I guess that's the funny thing about life, you can never go back in time, you can never take something back, you can never get those wasted years and say "Okay, DO-OVER".  That will never happen, you live, you learn, you make mistakes, you hurt people, people hurt you, you forgive and you move on and try not to make the same poor decision the second time.

I lead a small life, meaningful but small, and I find myself wondering how much of it really matters.  Am I making any sort of impact whatsoever, is there any kind of good coming from this life that I live, am I doing everything I can to help everyone around me.  So much of my life reminds me of something I read in a book one time or saw in a movie, when shouldn't be the other way around?   I guess I'm not really looking for an answer just sending this off into the abyss to ponder...

Farewell, until we meet again.

Candace

Spanish Rice

2 Cups Cooked brown rice
1/2-1 Cup Salsa
1 Cup Corn
1 Can Pinto beans

Mix together over stove and serve with Chicken or if you are Vegan this is filling in itself!  Enjoy :D

Sunday, October 9, 2011

The Top

Time and time again I feel like I let myself down.  I come to a point in my life where you would think that I could just enjoy myself, that I could look myself in the mirror and know that everything I set out to do was everything that I accomplished..but it's not.  Life so rarely turns out the way we plan them, and the things that do never really feel as we imagined they would.

What happens to us when we reach a point of no return, that place that we always wanted to be, that mountain we have been climbing for so long and finally reach the top.  This is suppose to be a milestone, a huge accomplishment, a moment of triumph and victory for a battle well waged....so why does that feeling fade, why even when you should be on top of the world you still feel under it.  It's the same thing that happens to those that think if we keep getting new things and always have the best of the best and are constantly adorning our homes and our egos with the latest trends that we will somehow be happy...but you won't.

I can tell you why that feeling once you reach the top doesn't last, it wasn't meant to last, we weren't meant to depend on our own ability to fill that void, to reach that dream.  No, that was not our job in the first place...but instead the job of our Maker.  Did you really think that the one who created you would allow you the ability to forget that you still needed Him.

I look at the world and see all the people that still tell themselves that they are the ones who have the control, but that's all they are..telling themselves.  After all the planning and all the doing and it's just you, that moment when you are all alone and all is calm and quiet...do you feel content?  For a lot of you the answer is most likely no, no because there is still so many things left that you want to achieve and while you may be content for now, you won't always be and then what? Do you find something new to fill that hole, do you create a new goal for yourself?

There is nothing wrong with new things and goals, but maybe instead of jumping on the next band-wagon right away, we can take a step back and determine why we are so quick to do this in the first place.  My wish for you is that you do all things you set out to do and accomplish all the dreams you desire, but that you also remember the reason we are meant to do these things in the first place, for a higher meaning, for a greater purpose.  I bid you all a farewell till next time.

Warm regards,

Candace

Orange Julius

1 cup of Orange Juice
1 cup of Ice cubes
1 cup of Milk Substitue (or regular milk)
1/2 cup of granulated or Raw Sugar
1 tsp. of Vanilla extract

Mix in a blender till smooth and serve, Enjoy :D

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Ashes

Do you ever wonder how many times God has taken all your crap, all your wrong turns, your bad decisions, your "if I had just prayed about it a little more" choices, all the times you should have taken a right and instead you took a left, every moment that you took a few steps back instead of moving forward, all those horribly, sometimes life changing mistakes that we make and He, God has to fix it, He has to somehow out of the total mess we've gotten ourselves in, make it new, make it work, make it how it was suppose to be......He trades us beauty for ashes.

No worries because fortunately God is quite good at doing that, making all the times we decided to take the wrong path turn into the original path, the right path, the path we were suppose to be on all along. This is the path that our destinies run on, that every good thing and every hard time that made us stronger runs its course, it is the perfect way to go and the ultimate outcome that God chose for each of us when he sent us to this world so that we may change the world.

I often wonder how many times I have wandered down the wrong way or taken a wrong turn and I pray that I made the right choice more often than not. You see when you don't spend time with your Maker asking him if you should go here or take that new job there or move to another state or country or down the block for that matter, if you don't ask him if it is smart for you to being talking to that person about that specific thing or if you should have helped that person who really needed someone or whatever the circumstance may be, if you don't take the time to pray, to seek his face, to ask him "Am I making the right choice"...then you could make the wrong one that could set you back days, months and even years in the path he originally set out for you.

I said all of that to say this, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE do not be so far from God that you don't take the time to ask him if what you are about to do is what you should do, please don't just assume and then months later you find out you missed a whole opportunity because you just didn't give God the courtesy of making sure he was okay with your ultimate decision. I don't want to waste valuable time, time that I could have spent achieving my destiny and making Him proud for time that instead I spent disappointing Him and completely missing the whole purpose for that moment.

Listen, I do not know how many times the Lord has had to pull me out of situations that I foolishly allowed myself to get into, and I am not sure that I want to know because I am afraid that I would not like the final number, but what I can do is move forward making sure that I am doing everything I can to seek the answer from the one who knows the outcome. I really pray that all of you will seek first before you make a move that could lead you down a wrong path and inevitably delay your whole reason for being here in the first place. I bid you all a farewell till next time.

Warm Regards,
Candace

Vegan Fluffy Pancakes w/ Raspberry Syrup
1 cup of flour ( I use barley)
1 cup of milk sub. (I use rice milk of if your not vegan you can use regular milk)
1 TBSP of sugar
2 TBSP of baking powder
2 TBSP of oil ( I use coconut oil)

Whisk all ingredients together, than bake on a griddle or pan until the tops start to bubble then flip until golden brown, for the syrup I take maple syrup and raspberry jam and heat till runny, then pour over your pancakes and enjoy :D

Monday, May 23, 2011

The Race

I would first like to start out by saying that I think we, as humans, have this bad habit of seeing the worst in people, all the things that we first notice or all the things that take some time to notice, the things that you hope others won't notice in yourself or the things that you say you wouldn't be caught dead doing, all these things that make up the human race, all these flaws that we all share and that we all expose and that we all gossip about, these things that we can't seem to look past and some of these things that we look past too often....these are the things that make us who we are and these are the things that we can overcome or they can absolutely destroy us.

It really is up to you wether you let them define you and control you till its something you become accustom to and eventually something you stop trying to change and then that lack of bettering yourself turns into interest-lost and inevidetably settlement.  Hey, flaws, we all have 'em, but if you are one of those unfortunate people who make it a habit of only seeing them and pointing them out in others like you don't have them yourselves, well let me just say you are traveling down a very dark and lonely road that only will lead to lack of friends and ultimate unhappiness.

These flaws that we all possess, some more than others, are obstacles that have been put in our way for a reason, think of it as a challenge if you will, you see if life were easy peesy lemon squeezy we would have nothing to strive for, nothing to work on, nothing to overcome, nothing to achieve and to me that is worse and quite boring. 

I hope that we can all take a moment, just a second and instead of seeing the flaw in someone how about we see that flaw as a hurdle they have to jump to finish the race and how about instead of hoping they trip and fall to their demise you cheer them on and tell them they are going to fininsh....and finish they will.

I bid you all a farewell till next time!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Yummy Bean Tacos
fresh refied beans (I take a can of beans , black or whatever I have and mash them and add mexican spices so its much healthier)
fresh corn tortillas (I get the natural kind)
brown rice, cooked and fresh salsa added to it
chopped lettuce
chopped tomatoes
chopped avocadoes
chopped jalapenos
chopped onions
fresh pico de gallo or salsa

Heat tortillas in a pan or in the oven, spread beans then rice then toppings and fresh salsa or pico on tortillas and enjoy!  These are very simple, healthy and quick!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Like "Family"

You know when you are watching a movie on how life use to be, the good ole' days, when the rat pack ran the streets of Vegas and when you took care of me and I take care of you was the mentality and as soon as you became part of the group you weren't just another member of a "club" you were Family.  They were always giving good advice, "what should I take on vacation?"...."Leave the gun take the canolli" Or..."take it to the mattresses". Yes these great american classics like the Godfather, make that life seem so glamorous and wonderful, as long as you stay in good graces with the Family you pretty much had anything you could ever want.

Movies or stories like these seem so cool and makes you want to ignore that they probably brought a lot of pain and straight up scary times to the families that were impacted or involved.  I think the reason we like these movies is because minus the fact that these people seem to walk into a room and all eyes are on them and everybody stops what they are doing because these people command attention, is that they have these tightly-knit families that seem so close, close enough to go to them for anything, close enough to pay for anything, close enough that you arn't messing with him or else I'm messing with you, close enough to throw you in the Brooklyn and never think twice. 

Yes this kind of closeness, no matter how real these actual stories are, the closeness that seems so real is the closeness that most don't have or never have experienced in their lives, so we make up for that void by over-compensating in another area or by becoming this independent, do-it-myself, don't-need-any-kind-of-help-from-anybody kind of individual which only allows us to push people farther and farther away all the while alinating ourselves from ever knowing any kind of real love, true love, love that would die for you, love that did die for you, love that is everlasting, never compromising, always there, never going anywhere kind of love.

I have the pleasure of saying that I know this love from my Savior, this love will never leave you once you accept it and is the one love you can turn to no matter what you've done or said or didn't say and I am very greatful.  I think we try so hard to either avoid this kind of love because we are afraid that it's not everything it says it is or because we are afraid that it doesn't last forever or that we've done something that doesn't deserve that kind of love, but may I just say in all my life I have never seen one single person, young or old, married, divorced, murderer, adulteror, gossiper, hater and all around sinner ever be turned away from knowing it and to me thats kind of amazing.  I hope you can all know this kind of love in your lives and I pray that you do.  Please feel free to comment, pass along or re-post!  I bid you all a farewell till later!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Yummy Veggie Filled Pockets
2cups of Flour
1/3 cup of Olive Oil
1/2 packet of yeast
1/3 cup of milk substitute (I use Hemp or Rice)
dash of salt
dash of pepper
1 cup of Cabbage, chopped
1 onion, chopped
1/2 cup of carrots, chopped
5 small muchrooms, sliced
hot sauce
spices of your choosing
fresh garlic, chopped

mix milk, oil and yeast and let sit for a few minutes, then mix in flour and salt/pepper roll out dough on a floured surface till you get a nice round piece.  Sautee vegetable mixture and sauces/spices till soft, then spoon veggies onto the dough in a long strip and then roll dough around veggies, before closing brush some milk sub. othe ends of the dough and then close, put in oven at 395 degrees for 12-15 minutes, cut and enjoy ;D

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Life

So I've been gone for a week and now I've decided that writing is something I miss way too much to go a whole week without doing it. I attended my Grandmother's funeral this past week and if there is one thing going to a funeral is sure to do is really make you put your life in perspective. THings that seemed important a few days ago no longer are, petty stupid things that we waste our time thinking about, these toxic distractions that we allow to consume us, all the while spending valuable time on that instead of what our real purpose in life is.

There are so many things that I want to do, so many things that I have to do and the years I have left don't seem long enough to accomplish everything and definatley nothing I should be wasting with stupid minescule things. Did you ever notice how much happier you are when you don't focus on those things, when life gets so busy that you don't have time to focus on anything else much less something not worth while.

I know that there are things that people say or do that make us angry and we would love nothing more at that moment to hold onto a grudge and tell all of our closest allies what that person did or said or is doing and how wrong they are, and they may very well be, but after seeing someone live 104 years and going to her funeral and looking at her and knowing that she lived a great life and then hearing her voice on a video tape of her very last moments on this earth and do you know what she said, she said that she didn't always do it right, she wasn't always perfect, and hearing her say that my heart just broke and still aches because although no one is perfect she still wished she didn't do this or didn't do that and when I get to that moment in time I want as little to look back on a regret as possible.

My wish is that we all can look back and know that we did everything we could to be kind, to bite our tongues when we wanted to say not so nice things, to live each day with joy and peace everlasting and to live in the present, to really take each day and live the crap out of it. I bid you all a farewell!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Vegan Chocloate Chip Cookies
2 cups flour (I use barley)
1 tsp of baking powder
1 tsp of baking soda
3/4 cup of chopped unsweetened baking chocolate
1/2 cup of raw sugar
1/2 cup of brown sugar
dash of sea salt
1/2 cup of oil (I use olive oil)
1/4 cup of warm water

mix flour, baking soda/powder and salt, mix sugars and oil in a separate bowl, add all of the rest of the ingredients in one bowl, put on a baking sheet at 350 degrees for 10 minutes, Enjoy:D

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Legacy

So I found out Saturday morning that my great grandmother had passed and at first I was sad because that means I will never be able to hug her again or talk to her about how things use to be or about how good God is, and then I realized that she is in a much better place, she was on this earth for One-Hundred and Four years and was sane for all of it, and although she had a ton of children and grandchildren and great grandchildren, she never forgot.

She was one of the best woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing, she would always say that she would ask God many times why she was still here, why after her husband had been gone for so many years, why after her own children had passed, why after all this time when it didn't seem like there was any reason for her to be here and every time he told her "I am keeping you here to pray". Isn't it funny that we could look back on our lives and not be able to connect the dots, not be able to see the impact of the things that we are doing and at times it can seem disheartening, but you have no idea the people you are affecting and how small and insignificant it may seem to you, it is very important that you do it.

My Grandmother left behind something amazing...a legacy, she did this very simple thing, she lived for the Lord, taught her children to do the same and prayed, for 104 years she prayed and for 104 years she changed peoples lives and now that shes up there I know she is smiling down and connecting the dots and seeing just how fruitful her life was simply because she chose to be obedient.

My goal is to leave such a great legacy like she did so that one day when its my turn I can look down and know that what I did was good and what I did changed peoples lives and what I did was exactly what I was suppose to do...leave a legacy. I bid you all a farewell till next time.

Warm Regards,
Candace

Fresh Vegan Keylime Bars
Crust:
1 cup of flour (I use Barley)
1 cup of whole grain oats
1 TBSP of agave nectar
dash of sea salt
1/3 cup of raw sugar
1/4 cup of coconut or oilive oil

Filling:
Juice of 2 limes
Zest of 2 limes
2/3 cup of raw sugar
1/4 cup of ground flax seed in 3 TBSP of warm water (let sit for 2 minutes)
2 TBSP of Organic Apple Juice

Mix crust and press into a pan and bake at 350 degrees for 20 minutes, mix filling and then pour over cooked crust and bake for another 20-27 minutes until golden brown, let cool and Enjoy :D

Friday, May 6, 2011

STOP

Today I was thinking about how in the past thirty minutes I had been so annoyed of another person, scratch that, people, and I was nit-picking every single detail on what annoyed me and why it bothered me so much, and how for those thirty minutes that person did not even realize what they were doing. And then as the steam was pouring from ears and the blood was coursing through my veins at a much more rapid pace, I stopped...and I saw the person who had just spent the last few moments raising my blood pressure, and I saw them in a different light, I saw them laugh and may friendly conversation and tell about their family and talk to another human being and give a kind embrace and gentle kiss on the cheek, and as I sat there watching this.....my hardened heart began to soften and the face that was once solid as stone slowly started to turn into a smile.

As I stood there I realized that we are all human, we all have those annoying habits and ways about us that others have a hard time standing. We can all do and say ill-conceived things and even repeat them on more than one occasion. We must not hold every person to such high a standard, we must not nit-pick and dissect every single thing that someone does. This will never make you happy because you will soon find that no one is perfect and if you spend your time examining their flaws you will grow into a bitter wreck.

Let's agree to give each other a break every now and then and remember that if you just take a moment to STOP....and see someone in a different light...they might just surprise you. I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow.

Warm Regards,
Candace

Yummy Vegan Peach Cobbler
5-6 ripe peaches, sliced thin and pitted
1 cup of whole grain oats
1/2 cup of brown sugar
1/2 cup of granulated raw sugar
dash of cinnamon
pinch of sea salt
6-8 TBSP of coconut oil (or any oil or butter substitute you prefer)
1/2 cup of flour (i use barley)

Mix peaches, granulated raw sugar, cinnamon and salt till coated, lay peach mixture in the bottom of the pan then mix remaining ingredients till they stick together then put crumbly crust mixture over the peach mixture until coated, bake at 350 degrees till crispy golden brown (about 20-30 minutes) Enjoy ;D

Thursday, May 5, 2011

"no follow through"

Okay so I have officially made a recipe that absoultley did not turn out. I had a craving for lemon bars so I decided to make a vegan lemon bar recipie that I found online and as I mixed up the crust and then mixed up the yummy lemony fillig of goodness, I popped that baby in the oven and to my dismay I arrived at a very odd looking finished product. It was more brown than yellow and more honey tasting then lemon, needless to say I was not very happy and will definatley be disgarding the remains.

I will be finishing up my 30 days this weekend and many people have asked, now that I have made it 30 days being vegan, what am I going to do next, well I have officially decided, with much deliberation, that I will be continuing on my vegan ways after the 30 days are up and I will be totally content in doing so.

I have a lot and I mean a lot, of people asking me how in the world can I continue to eat this way, how can I stand always having to pack my meals and plan ahead and turn down good, chemical-induced food, and yes while it is virtually impossible most of the time to go out to eat or to go to a gathering and not bring your own dish just so you will have something there that you can consume, I have oddly learned to adapt to this crazy way of life and I really do enjoy it!

Yes there are moments that I wish I could just go hit up Famous Daves and have there buttery corn bread or slab of all too fatty ribs, but I soon get over those wishes and remember the way that I feel when I am doing this, the thing that I have committed to, and if it was about anything else over the past 30 days it was definitely about finshing what I have started and I am happy to say that I will.

There is nothing greeter in life then a true sense of accomplishment, the feeling that you get when you have done what you set out to do. There are so many times in life that we have deviated or just plain given up so when we finish something and we gave it all we had there is something to be said about that. I really do admire those of you that seem to have everything together and always finish what you have started, but for the rest of us with the classic case of "no follow through" we seem to take pride in when we achieve these things in life. I hope you all can finish the things you start and committ to the things that will make you a better you. I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow. Happy Cinco De Mayo!!!!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Vegan Fiesta Bean Nachos
1 cup of organic tortilla chips
1 can of black beans
fresh spinach, chopped
1/2 cup of corn
salsa
sea salt
garlic
fresh cilantro
fresh tomato, chopped
fresh onion, chopped
lettuce, shredded
Olive Oil
lime, cut in half

heat oil, beans, corn, spinach, and 1/2 of chopped onions in a pan with seasonings and salsa. in a bowl or on a plate put a base of tortilla chips once mixture it heated pour over chips, then top with remaing ingredients and some more salsa and a squeeze of fresh lime, Enjoy :D

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Hole..

Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?"
—Henry Travers as Clarence the angel in "It's a Wonderful Life"

This is a famous line from the famous movie "It's a Wonderful Life", where a man is at the end of his ropes, he finds himself wondering what he has left to live for and not even realizing what it would do to someone else if he were not here at all, and better yet what it would do to him, in the end he comes to his senses and realizes that he does in fact have a Wonderful Life....

Point being of this little trip down memory lane of the all-american classic is this, the main character in this movie doesn't realize that we were each put here to touch someone elses life, that the words we say, the things we do or don't do, are affecting others around us who are watching us, who may look up to us, who may need you to get your life together so they in return can get their's together.  The man is asking the main character if he realizes that each man's life, no matter how insignificant we may think it, in the same way is important, if not to the very man himself, then to someone else counting on him, knowing that if he were to ever leave or ever not truely step into who he is then it would leave a hole.

My question for you is what kind of hole are you leaving?  Who are you making an impression on, an imprint of your life should be all around you and others, how much are you achieving that you know you're suppose to be achieving.  How many times have you stopped and took a step back and said "whoa this is what I was meant to do, this is what my dreams look like".. how many times have you honestly woke up in the morning and knew that you were on to something?

There are all these moments I fear we could be missing by simply remaining stagnet, by not realizing who we really are and the kind of affect we have on others around us.  This is my thought, no scratch that, my goal, to leave a hole in this world that even after I am gone they are still talking about it, that the next generation remembers me and they know the very thing I set out to achive is the very thing I accomplished.

I hope we can all leave a BIG, HUGE, GAPING HOLE in this life, because we only get to live it once.  I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow.  Oh and please feel free to leave a comment or pass along to a friend!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Vegan Eggplant "Parmesan"
1-2 eggplants sliced
flour of your choosing used at your discretion ( I use barley flour)
1/2 cup or so of coconut milk or milk of your choosing
1 egg substitute
bread crumbs
italian herbs and spices
garlic
sea salt
fresh basil
can of tomato sauce
frech sliced tomatoes
fresh sliced red onion
1-2 tbsp of olive oil

Slice eggplant into medium pieces.  Mix flour and all seasoings together, dip eggplant into milk substitute then egg substitute, then flour mixture, then back into the milk then into bread crumbs, fry on skillet with olive oil till crispy on both sides.  When cooked top with a slice of onion, tomato and spoon of tomato sauce.  Helpful Tip: if egg plant is bitter soak in water and sea salt for 10 minutes before making. Enjoy :D

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Vision

"Boy, I got vision and the rest of the world is wearing bi-focals". These words from the famous Butch Cassidy are something I think we can all relate to sometimes, like we are just peering into someone elses life and being on the outside we can truly see with perfect vision what the actual situation that is occurring, knowing that they may be about to make a huge mistake or maybe it's the same mistake being reapted over and over again and leaving you often wondering "how can they possibly keep reapting the same stupid thing over and over again?"

Well let me start by saying there may be some that look at us with those 20/20 eyes and we are the ones in the thick-fogged over lenses that seem to never be working. Every person at one point or another, some more frequent than most, have a moment in their lives that they just can't seem to get over, they keep running the same lap, they just can't seem to break their funk and no matter how many times you tell them how to get over it and no matter how many times they talk about getting over it, they never will until they are ready, until they pick up that fresh pair of eyes and see things clearly, things as they really are.

You may look at other people, as I know I do, and wonder "how is it that they struggle with that" when it seems so silly and simple to fix..to you, but to them it's all they can think about, it's that little devil sitting on their shoulder constantly poking them with that annoying little stick saying "just one more doughnut, you can start on your diet tomorrow" or "just one more smoke, you can always quite tomorrow" or "no need to tell that person what you know you need to tell them, they will always be here tomorrow"...but the whole problem with tomorrow is we never know if its coming, this may be you last moment, this may be the only time you have to get yourself together and live life how your actually suppose to, this may be the only shot you get and your wasting it.

If it had to do with only yourself then I could understand why we seem to fall horribly time after time to the same devices, but what if it's not just about us..what if by achieving what we are suppose to have achieved all along we could be saving someone else, what if losing those 20, 40, 100 pounds could inspire someone else to do the same, what if you actually picked up your pen and wrote that novel that turned into a best-seller that inspired a generation to make a stand, what if you took that remarkable, one of a kind gift that only you have and turned it into a movement...

I am so sick of wasted time and missed moments that I could have lived to become myself instead of staying the same. There is nothing stopping you from being brillant, from achieving total and complete success, not one person...just yourself. You can say you haven't lost those last extra pounds because of this or you haven't gotten around to starting your own business, or actually completing something in your life that is worth while, but all your really saying is you haven't taken the time to become yourself and shouldn't that be the first thing we should get around to doing?

I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow.

Warm Regards,
Candace

Homemade Guacamole and Tortilla Chips
3-4 mashed avocados
1 small red onion, chopped
1 tomato, chopped
2 jalapeƱos, chopped
1 TBSP of olive oil
fresh cilantro
dash of garlic powder
dash of sea salt
juice of 1 lime
Whole Grain Corn or Whole Grain tortillas

mix all ingredients in a food processor till still chuncky, cut fresh whole grain or whole grain corn tortillas into triangles and sprinkle with sea salt and olive oil and broil till crispy, enjoy :D

Monday, May 2, 2011

Serendipity

Serendipity- definition: to come by something accidentally, not planned out...fate. Do I believe in fate? That a serendipitous moment is waiting around the corner? That somehow, some way in lue of all things I try to control that I actually control nothing, that life is nothing more then a triangle of decisions that we make which inevidatably lead to our fate. Yes, yes I do.

I believe that God controls everything and that yes we have free-will to choose what way we will take to work today or what we will eat for lunch or where we will live, but I believe there is a higher power that orchestrates our fate, wether we want to cope with that or not, it is the case. I believe that it was fate that caused me to miss that green light on my way to the grocery store only to avoid a 7 car pile up if I would have went through it, I believe it was fate that caused me to just happen to go out of town and miss my regular route to work on the very same day the 35W bridge collapsed, I believe it was fate that I met my husband when I did and where I did, I believe for as much as we "think" we control all the little situations and ins and outs of this life, that in all actuality we contol a lot less than we are lead to believe.

And yes I am one of those people that believes everything happens for a reason, as cliche as it sounds, but it does, if I would have done this then I wouldn't have gotten this, if I would have gone there then I would never be here, if I would have said no then I would never have gotten the chance to say yes. I said all of that to simply say this, know that with all the things you try to control in your life, all the planning ahead, that your days have already been predestined, your life has already been planned and wether or not you decide to take a left rather then a right, it will all somehow mash together how it was always meant to be...fatefully.

I hope you all make the right decisions that lead you to your great destines! I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Juicy Lucy Morning Smoothie

1/3 cup of Organic Apple Juice
1/3 Cup of Organic Orange Juice
3-4 ice cubes
1/4 cup of frozen strawberries
1/3 cup of frozen blueberries
1 banana
handle full of spinach

blend all together and enjoy :D

Saturday, April 30, 2011

The Good Stuff

Do you ever feel all your insecurities are on display?..Like they are the only things that people can see.  Some how all the good qualities, the things that people always compliment you on or the things that people fall in love with, the things that only you possess, the things that no one else could even touch....well those things just seem to slip away when we are feeling this way, when we could hear a million times that we are beautiful or a million times that we are kind or we are a wonderful cook or "of course those jeans don't make you look fat", but for those brief moments we don't want to hear it.  It's like nothing can change our mind because as long as we keep lying to ourselves about what we think we are we will never believe anyone else.

I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have done this, this toxic thing that the enemy breathes into our minds, telling us we aren't good enough, telling us we never will be and all those dreams we dream of and all those goals we want to achieve are never going to happen...and he's right they won't, not until we are willing to stop believing the lies and start becoming the truth.  I have a very limited time on this earth and I absolutely refuse to spend it in self-loathing and unaccomplished destinies.

So now lets get to the good stuff, lets start becoming those wonderful people we were meant to be all along, long before all the bad things crept in and stole our time, stole our thoughts...we were meant for so much more.  you need to see in yourself what everyone else sees in you, what the Maker of the universe sees in you, you need to take all the things that your good at and make them better, take all the things you love to do and do them more, take all the things your heart aches for, all the things you desire and make them a reality, make them your own, make them tangible.  

Once you begin to believe in yourself, once you can look in the mirror and say a good thing instead of a negative, once you really put those dreams in motion, that is when you will fully begin to understand who you are, like you should have been doing this all along, and you'll be wondering why you didn't start sooner and why you for even a brief moment thought you could have been happier anyway else.  Sometimes it just takes a little longer to realize it, all that matters is that you do.

I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow.

Warm Regards, 
Candace

Perfect Corn "Pudding"
1/2 cup of corn
1/2 cup of milk substitute (I use rice)
1 cup of corn meal
dash of salt
1/4 cup of oil (I use olive or coconut oil) 
1 1/2 tsp of baking powder

mix together all ingredients and bake at 350 degrees till golden brown, 20-25 minutes, serve as a side dish or eat as a desert, Enjoy :D

Friday, April 29, 2011

The Contents

Not quite sure why we as humans put so much emphasis on status, its like we think because of someones birthright or because of how famous they are or how beautiful they look that somehow we tend to look past who they really are as a person.  Why is it that just because someone accomplishes something great in life like writing the next great american novel or starring in the new motion picture or just simply someone who leads a great life, great house, great family, great kids, great.great.great.great.great....and so it is those are great things to have and to achieve, but I think sometimes we get those "things" mixed up with the "who" that  someone is not what they did.


How many times have we judged a book by its cover?  Well if I were being honest I would have to say about a million times I have done this and about a million times I have regretted it.  Even if I was right in my judgement, who am I to judge anybody?  I am not God and in my book He is the only one with the right to judge any of us.  It is a horrible thing that all people do, like it was ingrained in us since birth or something, like we were taught to just look at the surface and if we didn't like what we saw then there was nothing else we needed to explore, when the sad thing about that is, what if we could have formed something really great with that person we were so quick to turn away, or what if we could have learned something so great if we would have just took a second to realize that the cover of someone is not the contents.  


I really hope we can move forward from this horrible thing that we have all done and that has been done to us as well.  I hope that every time you catch yourself starting to judge someone before you actually know them, wether it be based on their status in life, how much money they make, how happy they seem, how attractive they are, that you for just a split second remember how you have felt when someone misjudged you and how bad you felt and how wrong you knew they were and how everything inside of you was screaming "but that's not who I really am".....I hope you realize that that's not who that person really is either.


We are all just people,  with the same needs and hopefully the same goal, to live a happy wonderful life reaching our dreams and accomplishing all of our aspirations, once you strip someone of their status or lack their of, their clothing, their money, their look, their career, you will begin to see them for who they really are...a human-being just like your self.  I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow.


Warm Regards,
Candace


Vegan Mini Doughnuts
Dry:
1 cup of flour (I use barley flour)
1/2 cup of raw sugar ( I use sugar in the raw)
1 1/2 tsp of baking powder
dash of nutmeg
dash of cinnamon
Wet:
1/2 cup of h20 of milk substitute (I use h20)
1 egg substitute
4 tbsp of oil (I use extra virgin olive oil or coconut oil)
1 tsp of vanilla


Mix all dry ingredients with a whisk then mix all the wet ingredients with a whisk, then mix dry and wet together and put into doughnut pan, bake at 350 degrees for about 20-22 minutes, once cooked roll in raw sugar and cinnamon and enjoy ;D 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

"Nay-Sayers"

So some of you may be wondering what it is that I am actually doing, some of my recipies have been labled as "Vegan" and that may scare some of you crazy carnivores, so let me use this blog entry to intice you with my latest reasoning.  Yes, I have been following a vegan plan for the past 20 some odd days now, but not because I am an animal-loving, tree-hugging environmentalist by any means, and certainly not because I hate the taste of meat or dairy or my beloved goat cheese, but because when I set out to do this thirty days of no processed foods it simply eliminated everything that was animal products or not organic or had anything in it that was used to preserve. 

I have had a ton of people flat out tell me that what I am doing is not healthy and a ton of people ask "where are you getting your protein, are you sure you are gettin enough nutrients?"...and as annoyed of all the questions and sympathetic looks from some people who think A: I've lost my mind or B: I have some kind of disorder,  Let me take this time to share with you some clarity.

First things first, I have never had more energy then I do right now, I am also consuming more protein then I was before with my meat-eating way of life, and I am also consuming more fruits and vegetables then I ever have in my life and it shows, it shows in my skin, my hair my nails are growing remarkably fast even though I find it hard not to bite them off, I am not counting a single calorie or feeling hungry or deprived.  And yes it is hard to give up dairy I could really go for a pizza, but hey I shouldn't have been eating pizza before I started this so nothing real shocking there, also I would be willing to bet my life that I am a lot healthier then most of the people that are looking at me like I have some sort of illness, Nope sorry to disappoint you folks but I could probably run laps around most with all the added energy and feel-goodness I have from eating this way.

Oh did I also mention that not only do I feel satisfied with all the protien and fresh fiber I am getting from all the nuts, beans, rice, whole grains, fruits and veggies my diet is consisting of nowadays but I am also rarely hungry and never have to over-eat because my body is actually satisfied from all the vitamin-filled food I have been feeding it.  Do you ever wonder why you get a craving that just won't quite?....I can tell you why, because whatever it is that you are wanting so badly your body is actually missing a component of nutrients and it in return starts to crave something that it needs.  Since I have been doing this I don't have those cravings, I am giving my body exactly what it wanted all along and with as much as I miss my pizza I never needed that in the first place so it's a win-win.

Sorry to be so blunt, but I am really getting sick of nay-sayers, it's like they are saying "oh hmm so you decided to be healthy and take care of yourself....are you okay?"  I really hope that for all the things you want to do in your life and all the people that may question why you want to do that in the first place never stop you from accomplishing it.  You are YOU and nobody else should get a say in your dreams and desires, you need to do that for yourself, noone else but yourself and God.  I am going to be asking people to please comment on my blog if you have any questions or something to say and please if you like what you read pass it along!  I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow!!!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Summer Sphagetti

Whole Grain Organic Sphagetti, cooked
Organic Tomatoe Sauce
Zuchinni, chopped
Tomatoe, chopped
Onion, chopped
Yellow Squash, chopped
Garlic, chopped
Mushrooms, chopped
Fresh Basil, Chopped

Cook noodles, then cook all veggies in a pan with sauce, top with basil and enjoy :D

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Discipline

So my little journey on no processed foods for thirty days has been successful thus far minus my little excursion to Florida where I wasn't completely faithful but I got right back on the wagon and didn't let that stop me from following through. I am now 11 days away from completing and I have to say I don't know what I will do when it is all said and done, I really like not eating all the junk I consumed before, it has not been easy, it is virtually impossible to go out to eat or to go to a friend's home and be able to eat anything that they have made, if it's got dairy, eggs, meat or anything un-natural or added to preserve then it gets a big X and is not to be consumed.

You might say that is impossible to live by forever or people have said to me they would rather live life and not worry so much about what they are eating, that they don't want restrictions like the ones I am putting on myself, but can I just tell you that a life with no disciple, no real goals, no restriction, no limit on things that could be harmful to yourself, to your health, to your happiness, to your very well-being, is not something that I want to take lightly and just throw it into the wind and say "hmm oh well I'd rather be fat and disease-ridden and be "happy" then put a little discipline and restriction on myself". Uhh I gotta give that a big fat NO THANK YOU.

I think that we spend ourlives just kind of coasting, not wanting to push ourselves too hard or do anything too difficult, I might break a nail or I might just actually get somewhere with my life and be the happiest I have ever been and have everything I could have possibly ever wanted...but hey I don't want to try too hard or anything. The thing is you will never and I mean never, be totally fulfilled, happy, have real joy, reach your full potential, live life how it was meant to be lived until you push yourself, until you set some boundaries for yourself, until you tell yourself no, until you discipline yourself so you can get to where you want to be, who you want to be, who you are.

This is the point, life is way too short to sell yourself short, you absolutley cannot expect to arrive at your final destination without making it happen, you will never just stumble to it or accidentley come across it, or take a stroll and pass it on the street, you have to make it happen, you have to put some elbow grease in it, you have to sweat for it, it's never going to be easy and it wasn't meant to be...afterall how much would you actually feel like you accomplished if it came easy...I mean really.

I hope you can all work really hard and achieve all of your dreams so that they feel worth while. I bid you all a farewell till tomorrow!

Warm Regards,
Candace

Sante Fe Tacos
1/3 bag of frozen Corn
1 can of Organic Black Beans
1/2 cup of spinach
i onion, chopped
1 tomatoe, chopped
1 avocado, sliced
fresh Cilantro
Whole Grain Corn Tortillas
Sea Salt
Pepper
Garlic Powder
Organic Salsa

Heat corn, spinach, beans, onions, seas salt, pepper, garlic and salsa in a pan on medium heat till cooked and hot, put corn mixture into tortillas and top with the rest of the fresh toppings, Enjoy :D