Abyss

Do you ever wonder why some people seem to be always moving forward, always progressing and then others you could leave for ten years and come back and they would still be in the same exact spot.  Same job, or lack there of, same mind set, same goals still not accomplished...saying the same old thing and walking the same old walk they were when you left them.

I have a word for these people...disappointed.  These are the people that had a dream, that had a chance, maybe even moved towards it and almost made it happen.  But instead of falling down and picking themselves back up, they simply stayed down, so desperate, so hopeless, so Disappointed that they could not possibly fathom starting over and instead never started again.

I have been one of these people before, and I can tell you there is nothing greater than waking yourself up out of that slumber and deciding that you aren't going to stay down, but instead you are going to FIGHT!  I am sure that you know someone who is like this, or maybe that someone is you, all I know is there is nothing worse than waking up day after day knowing that this is not the life you wanted, knowing that as each moment ticks away on that clock and as each month turns into a year that your slowly loosing all your dreams.  If there is one thing that I have learned not only from myself but from others around me that have or are choosing this path, there is nothing rewarding in the mundane, there is nothing satisfying in broken-heartedness...nothing.  If I could go back a million times and change the word I said, the action I made, the thought I had, and chosen the other way I would have.  I guess that's the funny thing about life, you can never go back in time, you can never take something back, you can never get those wasted years and say "Okay, DO-OVER".  That will never happen, you live, you learn, you make mistakes, you hurt people, people hurt you, you forgive and you move on and try not to make the same poor decision the second time.

I lead a small life, meaningful but small, and I find myself wondering how much of it really matters.  Am I making any sort of impact whatsoever, is there any kind of good coming from this life that I live, am I doing everything I can to help everyone around me.  So much of my life reminds me of something I read in a book one time or saw in a movie, when shouldn't be the other way around?   I guess I'm not really looking for an answer just sending this off into the abyss to ponder...

Farewell, until we meet again.

Candace

Spanish Rice

2 Cups Cooked brown rice
1/2-1 Cup Salsa
1 Cup Corn
1 Can Pinto beans

Mix together over stove and serve with Chicken or if you are Vegan this is filling in itself!  Enjoy :D

The Top

Time and time again I feel like I let myself down.  I come to a point in my life where you would think that I could just enjoy myself, that I could look myself in the mirror and know that everything I set out to do was everything that I accomplished..but it's not.  Life so rarely turns out the way we plan them, and the things that do never really feel as we imagined they would.

What happens to us when we reach a point of no return, that place that we always wanted to be, that mountain we have been climbing for so long and finally reach the top.  This is suppose to be a milestone, a huge accomplishment, a moment of triumph and victory for a battle well waged....so why does that feeling fade, why even when you should be on top of the world you still feel under it.  It's the same thing that happens to those that think if we keep getting new things and always have the best of the best and are constantly adorning our homes and our egos with the latest trends that we will somehow be happy...but you won't.

I can tell you why that feeling once you reach the top doesn't last, it wasn't meant to last, we weren't meant to depend on our own ability to fill that void, to reach that dream.  No, that was not our job in the first place...but instead the job of our Maker.  Did you really think that the one who created you would allow you the ability to forget that you still needed Him.

I look at the world and see all the people that still tell themselves that they are the ones who have the control, but that's all they are..telling themselves.  After all the planning and all the doing and it's just you, that moment when you are all alone and all is calm and quiet...do you feel content?  For a lot of you the answer is most likely no, no because there is still so many things left that you want to achieve and while you may be content for now, you won't always be and then what? Do you find something new to fill that hole, do you create a new goal for yourself?

There is nothing wrong with new things and goals, but maybe instead of jumping on the next band-wagon right away, we can take a step back and determine why we are so quick to do this in the first place.  My wish for you is that you do all things you set out to do and accomplish all the dreams you desire, but that you also remember the reason we are meant to do these things in the first place, for a higher meaning, for a greater purpose.  I bid you all a farewell till next time.

Warm regards,

Candace

Orange Julius

1 cup of Orange Juice
1 cup of Ice cubes
1 cup of Milk Substitue (or regular milk)
1/2 cup of granulated or Raw Sugar
1 tsp. of Vanilla extract

Mix in a blender till smooth and serve, Enjoy :D